It happened today.
We are sitting in our hotel room here in Guangzhou. I am sitting on one couch reading and Eden is next to me in a chair working intently on her stenciling project. I look up and stare at her, just taking it all in. She feels me staring at her and looks up; her face lights up with that joyful smile and she says, “Mama!”
And that’s when it happened. I literally felt it flood over me. This promise that God gave me in the darkest hours. Back in the fall and early winter when I felt like my whole life was falling apart around me. And the promise of this child He’d been speaking to me about for two years seemed a total impossibility.
"Gladness and joy will overtake you, and sorrow and sighing will flee away" (Isaiah 51:11)
That’s what I felt today. Like gladness and joy had overtaken me.
When she looked up at me and it just sunk in real deep. He did this. He really did this.
Every weapon formed against us was destroyed. Every mountain that arose to keep us from Eden was flung into the sea.
"Blessed is she who has believed that the Lord would fulfill his promise to her!" (Luke1:45)
I am blessed. Overtaken.
I’d gotten used to the sorrow and the hard. And then I looked up and there she was. Gladness and joy have overtaken me and I am undone by the weight of His grace.